Bad Blogger

I don't mean to have such a long time go by between posts, things just get busy. And lately I am always so tired it seems I don't have the energy to even begin to post here.

So, updates:
Baby-he seems to be doing well. I had my first midwife appointment last Thursday. I've gained about 17 pounds. My b/p was a bit high due to some job stress I'll talk about later. It was 133/68. MW wasn't worried as low number was good, and that's the important one. She said the top number is the one that reflects stress. My hemoglobin was excellent at 13.4. They went over all the environmental toxins I should be trying to avoid, and which supplements they want me to add to my regimen. I am taking a prenatal and my bp meds, plus Expecta (DHA). I'm adding more DHA, vitamin C with bioflavonoids to help strengthen the amniotic sac, and raspberry leaf tea for uterine toning. The baby was measuring 31cm, almost 32, which is a week or two ahead. They were able to palpate my tummy and feel he is lying transverse currently, although I have been feeling the hiccups down low most of the time. He's probably turning 1/4 of a turn between transverse and head down, and will go head down to stay within the next couple of weeks. His heartrate was in the 140's, which is perfect.

I still haven't "come out" to my OB that I am doing a homebirth. I haven't seen him, I just haven't called either. My stepmom said she'll call and do it for me. LOL. I'm just a chicken I guess. It's not about the homebirth or fear, it's about telling a "big bad doctor" that I am "leaving" him. So weird.

Annalise is doing pretty well at school. We have parent teacher conferences next week, and will be getting interim reports soon. That should give me a feel for how she is doing. I'm not at all worried about her academically-her reading has gotten exponentially more difficult since she started first grade, etc...but I am wondering how she's doing emotionally and socially. She gets her feelings hurt a lot, which scares me, because if she thinks kids are mean NOW, just wait. :( She also feels "sad" a lot. Not sure what that is about. She seems very excited about the baby (although she told me Saturday she does wish it was a girl, not a boy, which is fine. :) ). She was having a blast watching him do big kicks this weekend where he was moving my stomach all over the place.

Abby is fine too. She's off of school today for Columbus Day. (Anna is not.) I'm taking her to get her hair cut later. It's getting desperate-it's the longest her hair has ever been and I know it's driving her nuts.

I still haven't heard anything about my work situation. Last Thursday I got a call that there is a problem of some kind. Someone on one of my teams has complained about me to the people she works with. I don't know who (although I suspect) or why. (although I suspect). I didn't worry too much over the weekend because I knew they wouldn't call me, but my stomach is very upset again today. I HATE crap like this. I don't deal well with confrontations or "being in trouble". Whatever I did was unintentional. I just keep telling myself that even worst case scenario, there are other jobs out there and we'll be fine. But why now? And why didn't this person just come to me and express her concerns, then move it on up the chain if I didn't address her concerns?? She knows (obviously) that I am pregnant. There are moments I'd like to smack her. :-O I won't though. LOL. I'll try to update when I know something. I just hope I am not in "big trouble". :(