Since when do we have to fix everyone? When did it become a fact that if someone is not.....anything.....we have to change that?
I'm depressed. I need to do something about it. Sometimes, though, I don't want to hear from others about how to fix it. I know what needs done to fix it. I'm me, after all, and I know better than anyone what needs to happen.
I don't want to wallow in depression forever. I don't want to keep feeling this bad. But sometimes, dang it, I need to talk about it. I need to be sad to someone else besides myself and my mom. My poor, poor mother, who can't take ONE.MORE.THING. being heaped on her. I end up not telling her much. Which means I end up not telling anyone, since really I have no IRL friends anymore. I'm very isolated and alone here.
Sometimes, I need to talk. Sometimes, I need to be sad. Sometimes, I need to feel sorry for myself. Sometimes, I need someone to just say that it's okay. It's okay to be sad, and sorry, and pitiful. It's okay to just be what you are, even if what you are isn't good.
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- Living here with everyone else in Middle America
- I just want a place to share my thoughts and feelings about life. Even if no one reads it, it will help me to organize my thoughts.
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Sometimes, I feel trapped like that. Even if I know what I can do about it, it doesn't mean it will happen. Especially, if I believe that the essential thing will not change, no matter what I do.
It get's tiring to have to do all the thinking and working things out on my own.
I just want you to know that I think of you often, and am praying for you to be encouraged through even the slightest of things that the Lord might bring your way. He knows...He sees...
Hugs and love to you....
Keep talking about it here! I care and will listen (and I'm sure others reading this feel the same way). You don't have to be anything other than what you feel like being.
Of course I don't want you to feel sad. Of course I wish there were some way to help in a concrete way. But I *get* the need to work things out (or not) on your own timetable. If what you need is a forum in which to freely express yourself without anyone offering suggestions, then by golly you deserve that. You should feel comfortable doing nothing more than saying that you're depressed . . . or talking about what it's like for you . . . or just saying whatever is on your mind.
xoxoxo
Oh, Lisa, I'm glad that you feel comfortable enough to talk about it here. I'm sorry I'm busy some times and not paying attention. I know if we lived close you and I would be true IRL friends. You and all the PSB ladies are the closest group I know on the internet. I hope that you are able to find a path through this. That there is some way to figure out how to come up again. I wish I were an expert so my words could help in some way. I'm not. Just a friend. It is OK to feel down and post about it. (((hugs)))
((hugs))))I wish that we lived closer...we all need some RLF that we cn lean on.. at least this is a good place to start..just know that we are all here for you!
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